Depression can hit anyone, and it is often hard to diagnose. Till Raether is often sad and exhausted – again and again, for weeks at a time. And just as often he asks himself whether this might be depression or just normal, grey life. In his book, Till Raether speaks openly about an illness that he has lived with for many years and that he often tries to cover up, which takes a great deal of energy. He describes tears at his therapy sessions, the recurring thought that he should simply pull himself together – and his breakdown. An honest, warm book about a situation that is familiar to a lot of people.
"I never thought of killing myself. I just often thought of lying down and never getting up again. Every few months, for a week or two. As soon as everyone left the house, I’d go back to bed. Just for a little while, I thought. To gather my strength. For this insurmountable, unconquerable, heavy, grey day. And for all the days that followed. And as soon as I was back in bed, all my strength left me, and I stayed lying down."
