LOST GIRLS

Breathing for the First Time (Vol. 1)

  • English sample translation available.
  • 430,000 copies sold across the author’s previous duologies Dark Ivy, Paper Love and Blakely Brothers.
  • An intense, captivating and painful story of healing and empowerment: this is a sensitively told story about overcoming trauma, the courage to start over, and the incredible strength it takes to reclaim one's own life.

  • Topics: Emotional Scars, Leaving Toxic Relationships, Reclaiming Her Life, Women's College, Found Family, Safe Haven, Healing Journey, Empowerment, Resilience, Scared to Love, Slow-Burn Romance

"I’m lost. And I don’t ever want to be found …"

A luxurious beach house, a successful NFL football star as a husband. From the outside, 21-year-old Darcy’s life appears perfect. In reality, it’s a nightmare. Every move is watched by her husband, every perceived mistake is punished. She can't continue like this. She doesn't want to continue like this.

While planning her escape, she meets Ellis, who immediately sees what she desperately tries to hide from everyone else. Darcy has no idea that it is precisely this encounter that will change her life forever. Because Jason will not let her go just like that ...

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  • Publisher: KYSS
  • Release: 16.09.2025
  • ISBN: 978-3-499-01623-3
  • 480 Pages
  • Series: Lost-Girls-Dilogie
  • Author: Nikola Hotel

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Nikola Hotel has a great weakness for dark characters and suppressed emotions, which is why her heart is especially attached to the New Adult genre. And this is evident in her emotional yet compelling love stories. Since 2020, each of her books has immediately entered the Spiegel bestseller list upon release. In addition, all her novels have special features, whether it's hand lettering in "It was always you" and "It was always love," a flip book and origami folding instructions in "Ever" and "Blue," or blackout poetry in "Dark Ivy." Nikola lives with her family near Bonn and provides a variety of insights into her writing routine on Instagram. To date, her books have been translated into six languages.